I'm hollow! Maybe i need something to make me smileo

Today is a bad day like all the nover 26th for the last 10 years! Yes 10 years!

But even if i don't have this day marked in mycalendar last week was so horrible 1 great panic attack and two little ones, plus self loath, and today all my body hurt, every last bit!

I'm hollow, i'm trying not to fall in my own black void, but i wad trying to remeber her voice and i can't and i'm in pain, physical pain!

Little sister why you go away that night, why you are still going away from me...

My husband didn't go to work to be sure i'll ok, he knows how i'm, i love him and my family too, i'm really trying to be here for them... But my heart is so shattered still.

Ximena at least let me remember your voice again, this is not helping to cope really don't!