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ariadne_chanHi friends!!!
i'm better from my ill state, so i was available to bring my son to the therapist and she found him fine.. so i'm happy because i was afraid about the 2 weeks he couldn't go... more if that is my fault for getting ill again!!!
But the most disconcerting thing is yesterday was my mother's Birthday...
you know for other post about My mom she and his boyfriend threat my family because of him...
so i don't contact her at all and she didn't call my son for his B-day.
I can't understand her yet, why suddenly she forgot about her grandchildren like that and even leaves them alone and even worse threat my family for that guy....
But for some reason i feeling bad about myself for not calling her or send her an e-mail
I know if i called her He would answer and i don't know what could happen
but is the first time i'm not calling her... Yesterday i even don't feel nothing, only a pressure in my heart about the day coming, only strange at not calling her... and now i'm so sad
i'm crying in fact... Why all this happens to me why???
now my kids have no grand parents for my side (my father came so little to see them and he lives near by, i totally know he thinks i'm a failure and he always treat me like that, but his grandchildren???
the other grand father my husband's side only send the gifts!
and now my mother who was the only one who actually comes by to see them, she did to them and to me
I don't know how to feel, what to do, i was trying not to cry, be more strong for my family, but her B-day makes me so sad and tear apart!!!
i'm better from my ill state, so i was available to bring my son to the therapist and she found him fine.. so i'm happy because i was afraid about the 2 weeks he couldn't go... more if that is my fault for getting ill again!!!
But the most disconcerting thing is yesterday was my mother's Birthday...
you know for other post about My mom she and his boyfriend threat my family because of him...
so i don't contact her at all and she didn't call my son for his B-day.
I can't understand her yet, why suddenly she forgot about her grandchildren like that and even leaves them alone and even worse threat my family for that guy....
But for some reason i feeling bad about myself for not calling her or send her an e-mail
I know if i called her He would answer and i don't know what could happen
but is the first time i'm not calling her... Yesterday i even don't feel nothing, only a pressure in my heart about the day coming, only strange at not calling her... and now i'm so sad
i'm crying in fact... Why all this happens to me why???
now my kids have no grand parents for my side (my father came so little to see them and he lives near by, i totally know he thinks i'm a failure and he always treat me like that, but his grandchildren???
the other grand father my husband's side only send the gifts!
and now my mother who was the only one who actually comes by to see them, she did to them and to me
I don't know how to feel, what to do, i was trying not to cry, be more strong for my family, but her B-day makes me so sad and tear apart!!!
